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July 13, 2008{

Just Another Night

well i think I've already said that
my legs were cramped to the core,
i could barely walk properly.
so i decided to skip religious class.
its that serious,

then while i was home,
my dad asked me to go to a wedding,
i was like laying down and he asked me that,
and i just couldn't say no,
man i hate myself for being soo... nice?

i thought he would park the car near the
wedding but he park the car like
super far away from the wedding
my legs were killing me, but when i reached there,
i was at ease when i sat down on the chair.

next time, i'll make plans for my weekends
so that i could just escape the same thing.
like the saying goes "learn from your mistakes"
so even if i am free on weekends,
i would stay the hell away from home.
For your info, the wedding was at pasir ris.

then when i was in the car,
my parents were fighting,
right in front of my eyes,
it was so scary, i just curled
up in the corner of the car.
i felt like i never existed in the car.
i didn't have my brother nor my sister to help me.
i felt alone. never had i felt so small and afraid
of my parents.

then when my parents stopped by at
jurong point to pick up my moms laundry
from the cleaners, i got off the car,
i hate to hear such stuff, so i didn't care.
so i took the bus home and walked slowly.
like a zombie.

i didn't go home straight of course.
when im outside, might as well stay outside.
when there is no walls, no cages, no chains
restricting your movement.
hey if it helps me with my mind then,
what the hell, why not right. haha.

well i went to west coast and sat at the water breaker.
it was cooling with lots of wind,
i didn't care about the pain in my legs.
i was scary at some point, walking in the dark alone.
but hey, i'm still in one piece right. haha.

then went home at like, i don't know what time,
and here i am, on the computer.
well i'm planing to get out of the house tomorrow
i don't know where yet, but hopefully far.
i just want to be out till.... lets say 7? haha.

And before i go, Tommy,
u may be my most reliable friend
in the whole wide world
and i am thankful i found you
but you are just strange. haha.
oh well who am i to judge you. hahaha.

oh yeah, here's a big note: if anyone who
is my friend needs help, even at 3am,
i will come to your aid and give u a helping hand.
whether its delivering items or fending off
people who are beating you up.
no matter where you are. only limitation is,
you have to be in Singapore for me to get to you. haha.

sorry for the boring/sad posts lately. haha.
its normal to have sad days, or else i won't be human
i'll try to be more cheerful,
i hope....

just a hello is enough to make me happy : ]

words/sentence/phrase of the day:

I'm so happy coz today
i found my friends,
they're in my head.

words from the song lithium - Nirvana.
A real Classic. hehe.

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