Don'T Even Try

2008-12-28T03:55:00.004+08:00

this is goodbye, to end off,
heres a song and lyric from the twilight soundtrack

Title: Flightless Bird, American Mouth

Artist: Iron & Wine

I was a quick wet boy
Diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes
Wide on my plastic toys
And when the cops closed the fair
I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map
And called for you everywhere

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big pill looming

Now I’m a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats
Curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold and clean
Blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, grounded bleeding
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big pill, stuck going down

2008-12-27T14:31:00.005+08:00

Im Back! lots of things happen,
i'm just tired of blogging.
next time when i have the mood.
may not blog again actually,
im just gonna leave you all with this song.

Paramore - i caught myself

Down to you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should've never thought
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should've never thought of you of you

You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No, I don't know what I want

You got it, you got it
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic, hypnotic
You're leaving me breathless
I hate this, I hate this
You're not the one I believe in
With God as my witness

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should've never thought
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should've never thought of you, of you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No, I don't know what I want

Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
But I know in my heart it's not you

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should've never thought
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should've never thought of you
I knew, I know in my heart it's not you
I knew, but now I know what I want, I want, I want
Oh no, I've should have never thought

Goodbye

Bye

2008-12-09T21:45:00.003+08:00

To everyone who knows me and see me often,

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hooray! don't have to hear or see me for 6 Days straight!!!!!
if you want a souvenir, CALL me, not msg.
and call by 7am tml, my flight leaves at 9 or 10am.

Last wise words from Amir:
Don't think too much, just Do.
if you think or pause for too long,
the opportunity will just walk pass you

last picture of me,

for the last time:
BYE!!!!!!!

2008-12-01T12:34:00.007+08:00

hello there readers,
let be strong and positive shall we.

lets love life for the good things,
i haven't changed.
I am Still Amir

it doesn't matter how
much time has been spent,
its what we do in these small hours.

the only thing is, I'm free as a bird!
so if anyone want to bring me out,
just give me a call at 90280541.
its easy.

Anyways, I'm Going to Australia!
on the 10th of December.
its just me and my brother,

the plane would fly to Perth
then to Melbourne.
the waiting time to board the
plane at Perth is 3 hours.

time will fly faster when
you're having fun.
so.....no worries.

I am still afraid of being on a plane,

*scary thought going through head*

live life without regret everyone.
even if you have a lousy day.
just turn the day to a happy day.

oh yah!
i'll be back on the 16th of December.

hope to see everyone again, see you,

the blog song is for you btw.

the sun

2008-11-29T00:07:00.004+08:00

Anyone There?

The Lone Sun, moving in circles,
the the universe, its doesn't go out of place,
it just stays there in the middle,

i went to west coast today,
just to sat and watch the sun as
it sets into the sea.

but as i stare at the sun,
i realize something,
the sad thing is,
the sun can never be with any of planets
in the universe, its all alone there.
he'll just hurt the others.
he will never be together with the moon or anyone.

Screw you guys if ur saying,
im sentimental
or thinking random things,
these are thoughts,

don't want to read, get lost

I've never felt so alone
staring at the sun,
but i won't mind, waiting there, everyday.

its so calm there.

sorry i haven't been updating.
wasn't in the mood, i do have pictures,
i'll put all the pictures in one post.
it would be long.....and tiring.

and just now
my battery died.
just when u needed it,
it dies. i was like, Damn it!

I'm just going to stop here,

sleep tight.

last words:
somethings are just missing,
and they are missing for the
main reason that they want
to be re-found.

OxOXoXOx

2008-11-20T21:47:00.005+08:00

Hey Wake Up!!

Lets stay positive shall we?

Tomorrow, i am going to support
my best friends extremely hot sister!!!
she is one of the finalist for
Miss Singapore Poly!

im going to cheer till my voice disappear!!
WOOOHOOO!

its at night, and its my distant cousin's B'day tomorrow,
but she and my best friend made me promise i'd come.
then Chop me a week in advance,
well all i can say now is, sorry cuz.
there's always next year,
that is if next year comes, :)

yesterday, i went to apply
for a job a Toy'R'Us and G2000,
i don't know if they'd hire,
but hey, it beats doing nothing at home.
and i hate to rot at home anyways.

And One DAY!
i will get my Magic -8-BALL!!!!!!!
i have to get it,
i have soooooo many questions
and no one to ask them to,
in anywords, its PERFECT!!!!!!
and Plus!!!!! its on chrismas sale!!!
the only problem is, i need to find
money before christmas

IT WILL BE MINE!!!!!!!

ok, thats enough, haha.
well they said they will call by the end of the week,
i hope they do.
fingers crossed.

have fun everyone. will blog sooner, or later.

2008-11-17T00:55:00.010+08:00

he he, i watch the movie, nacho libre, for
the fourth time! totally lots of free time,

for those of you who have no idea what
its about, its about a man who
earns money to help the
orphanage by wrestling.

the main thing i love about the movie was
that he never fights for greed, or for fame or glory,
he fights so that he could make the
little children live better and cook them
better food with fresh ingredients.

Jack Black is a great actor,
he's funny, duh.

today,
true boredom came to me.
i spent the whole day at home.
well there was no where to go
and no one to turn to.

tomorrow,
i'll just get out of the house.
anywhere but home.
its too lonely and boring at home.

i need a job, desperately, i'm cashless,
and i can't keep asking my parents for cash,

one day, i will have money and
i will treat you to lunch,

or maybe bring you
out for a fun day out,
like seriously,

i have no idea where is fun but,
at least it beats rotting at home.

happy 9 if you are reading this.
i never forget.

goodnight everyone,
especially you my dear readers, hahaha.

Look Alive People

2008-11-16T01:32:00.007+08:00

I changed my blog skin!!!! haha.
it was about time to change anyways,
and the best thing is,
i didnt need anyones help!!!
hahaha.

just now, i went to VIVO city,
i was with my family,
we ate at banquets and sat at the roof,
and ate ice-cream.

here are some overdue pictures from prom night hehe,
was too tired to post them, here they are:

Me, Mr Lee and Shanker.
Mr lee,The best teacher I've ever known

my class won a bottle of wine for....
i don't remember, haha.

the guys whom i went with

the Final picture with my class form teacher, Miss Caroline teacher
the best English teacher EVER!!!!!

her teachings made my English grades
from a C6 to an A1 !!!!!
will never forget her kindness towards me and my classmates.

to tell the truth,
the best thing i love about her was her willingness to make
us be more responsible with our own life,
she was always there for the class,

With all said and done,
i THANK YOU Miss Caroline Tracy from Hua Yi Secondary School!!!!!!!!

To those who have help me through my secondary years,
you will never be forgotten because i never forget those who
have came to my aid and rescue.

I count people as true friends when;
they get me out of tough situations,
lending me a dollar to buy water when im totally broke,
never get angry of all the wrong that i have done,
and most IMPORTANTLY!!!
have been there when i needed help.

Last words: GOOD TIMES LAST FOREVER

forget it

2008-11-14T19:12:00.002+08:00

Alrights,
im back, everything is begining to be... dull.
my friends are all beginning to disappear into their own life.
sitting all on my own with a psp in my hand playing boring games
just to kill time,

you know what would be nice?
being able to enjoy a day without getting
hit by the consequences of life.

how i wish there was somewhere to go.
Singapore is just plain.... theres no fun and excitement,
even if there is, it'll cost you a whole chunk of cash,

Yesterday, i had my prom night,
it started out great,
but towards the end,
i got bored,
sure i got a prize of $20 popular voucher.
but what use is it to me, so i gave it to my brother.

i received a plaque saying " Outstanding Contribution Award 2008"
i got it because i was a councilor. a sucky one at that.

soon, all the things that i've done will be forgotten anyways,
why did i even bother trying.

at the end of the year,
i will just forget about the events of this year,
just like every year in my life.

i'll just stop here. i'd continue but i got no mood to type anymore.
im going to lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling,

see you when i see you
bye

I'm Crazy!!!

2008-11-05T22:44:00.007+08:00

Hey World!!!!!
They Sky Was.......!!!!!!
DARK!!!!!!!
hahaha. bloody rained.
so sad.

well prom is coming,
i hope i will Kick AS* (can't put the other "S")
i seriously hope it wouldn't be stupid and boring!!!!!!!
i spent 60 Bucks to go!
IT BETTER BE WORTH IT!!!!!!!!
coz i'll be damn pissed if it wasn't haha.

i went to the Gym today,
i had syafik and Afiq to help train my body.
they push me to the limit sia.

if u want to train your body into a killing machine,
talk to syafik, the one in my links,
he noes how. he can be trusted.

i want to be able to protect people.
nowadays, i can't even do
pull-ups to save my own life.
thats all. i'm too weak.
which is true. haha.

im going to find something nice for prom i guess.
so..... take care people!!!!!!

Last Words:

If All My Dreams Come True, I'll Be Spending Time With You :)

*words from the song: more today than yesterday - goldfinger
my current blog song

2008-11-03T22:56:00.003+08:00

hey everyone, life is..... sad i guess.
watched Romeo and Juliet this morning.
that movie never gets old for me,
i like the soundtrack from the movie too. hehe.

well can't always expect a happy ending

i has been a long time since i updated.
i've been tired and tired to blog,
although i do have time, i just didn't have the mood.

whats there to say, nothing much is happening,
i feel like time is moving slower,
and my friends are going to finish their O levels.

Hang in there, your almost done with it,

And to my true best friends out there,
u have truly won my trust,
thanks for the help.

and goodnights everyone,
my words won't change a thing but,
just try your best.

bye,
love you

2008-10-22T00:50:00.005+08:00

IT WAS TUESDAY!!!!!!

hello there blog!
when i woke up this morning,
i didn't know the time,
i didn't know the day,
everything was a blur...

At the end, the only thing on my mind was.......
"i'm hungry".

life after N levels
is sure boredom if u ask me.

last weekend, i went to chinese garden and....
fed the fishes in the water.
and then i just sat there alone.
its super peaceful during the weekdays.

heres some pictures!

the path to chinese garden.

a turtle on a rock, its a rare thing to see.

the fishes that i fed.

Tomorrow,
i will be working at my dad's work place
for a while, until i find a job.

i need a decision on which job should i take.
i mean even though i still have money from hari raya,
i still need more. my hari raya money is finishing faster
then i expect it would be.

anyways, i hope tomorrow would be a happy day.
at the end of the day, its going to be.
just another day that has gone by.

its 1.13am already so......i need food.
haha. midnight snacks won't hurt, would it?

bye

2008-10-17T01:22:00.002+08:00

Hey Hey Hey!

Its only 1.22am
hooray!
ok i have no life right now.
so....if anyone needs me, i will be totally free next week.

its Friday!!!!!!
before i forget, happy 8 mth.

one of my favourite day coz....
its the last day of the week.

Okay. back to post.
for those who are still trying their best
to survive in life,
heres a tip:
it is to CHEAT!!!

sure you would be thinking
"doesn't that mean i will be a cheater?"
You Are Wrong!

If you CHEAT and FAIL, then u are called a CHEATER!
But if you CHEAT and SUCCEED, then you are OKAY!!
learnt this from a south park episode.

but only cheat when its a last resort,
it must never be used frequently.

teaching everyone the wrong thing is so much fun. hahaha.

Well readers!!
i have good News!!!!
i got a new phone!!!!!!!!
its a Sony ericsson C902.
its super cool!!!!!!
5 megapixel,
awesome touch-screen functions for camera.

Okay fun fact about me,
i don't care what others think of me anymore!!!
hahaha. just listening from the song"pork and beans"
from weezer is enough to make me think that way.

i mean who cares what strangers think, haha.
they don't even know me! :)

i am trying to diet and keep myself healthy.
i am going to attempt to eat only 3-4 meals a day.
i have been eating like an animal lately. haha.

well going off to sleep now.
good night everyone in the world.

Last words:
sleeping in singlets and boxers are comfortable. haha.

2008-10-15T01:26:00.002+08:00

Armageddon, please come soon.

if it came, i won't have to make big decisions
on life. i just got back home at 6pm or 7pm
and i heard that i got a mail from ITE regarding
the traineeship programme.

the thing is, i just don't think i should go for it,
i don't even trust this thing and
i don't even know if its advisable to go.
and the days for application is on
the 17, 20 and 21.

the whole point of being happy
that N level is done means
u don't have to think of school anymore.
then this comes, i just want to run away from these things.

now i can't run coz its right infront of me right now.
i feel like i shouting "LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!"
i hate making decisions that you know you might regret
for the rest of your life later on in your whole life.

my feelings say don't go for it,
it feels like its a waste of time.
what are the odds of even getting
the course.

i just don't trust people as
much as i used to anymore.
don't ter-rasa.
its ok if anyone doesn't trust me,
i don't trust anyone anyways.

Last words:
i wish something would happen,
i mean anything, seriously.
i'm dying and i need something interesting in my life.

2008-10-12T23:29:00.005+08:00

Best Raya Ever!

haha. Hey people of the world!
I'm back, yesterday,
i went Jalan Raya with friends
from school, friends who have graduated
and those who i have just met.
the day started at 12 noon.
they rented a 20 seater bus,

To me, Hari Raya is meant for people to ask
for forgiveness for anything they have done in the past.
i actually dun care much about the money during
jalan rayas. i just want to have fun and ask for
forgiveness. I know i was a jerk in the pass so
saying sorry at this occasion would be appropriate.

At the end i was totally sleepy and tired.
i think there was a picture of me in the bus that
looks soooo tired, haha.

well here are the pictures i stole from
syafik's blog. enjoy!

Tadaa!!!! last picture, finally,
i'm too lazy to put captions my pictures so.....
have fun looking at them.
tomorrow i will be going jalan raya with my primary school friends.
so.... GOOD NIGHT!!!!!!

2008-10-06T22:28:00.003+08:00

Hey people who is in my life.
i've been busy doing things,
how have i been doing?
i have no idea myself actually.

i think i am attracted to stupid things.
things kept happening,
even the most simplest things
could go wrong.

i feel like a bad luck magnet is attach to me.
i have the feeling to run far far away again.
its like i dun want things to be worst or anything.
for all i know, i could be the one who makes your day
or made it worst.

i have nothing to blog about actually, so i'll just stop here and lay on my bed,
so....bye. till next time.

Last Words:
When a friend is in need of help,
help them with sincerity,
then maybe, just maybe.
good things may come your way.

thats what i sort of believe in.

2008-09-30T06:19:00.006+08:00

GooooooooooD MORNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello world!!!!!
the morning breeze smells nice
and..... i still haven't slept!
HAHA!

i wanted to blog later but,
now that i'm free, might as well just blog.
currently sitting on my bed with the laptop.

Yesterday!!!!!! was my maths paper 1
and i thought it was going to be super hard,
in the end, everything that i studied, came out!!!
how lucky was that!!!!! hahaha.
really confident that i pass paper 1

i was like laughing to myself saying,
"my gosh!!!! soooo easy!!!!!!!"

And to top on all the happiness,
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF FASTING!!!!!!!!
hahahhaa. finally!

but i don't feel like celebrating Raya at all this year.
i have more important things to do.
and on the 9th will be my last paper.

okay! off with the day. lets see what there is
for the life of Amir today,

for now, here's a class photo, (not everybody's in)

in on the left side.

Won't ever forget them.

2008-09-29T03:21:00.002+08:00

I HAVE CHANGED MY E-MAIL ACCOUNT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

read the title. haha. well i'm bloody busy at the moment.
im just spending a few minutes to do this.
and if i don't blog on hari raya then......

Selamat Hari Raya (in advance)

ok! don't expect a post soon. will be studying hard. byes!!!

Last words: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!I WANT A NEW PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-27T01:37:00.002+08:00

I Am Awake!!!!

Hello world! Amir here.
Saturday mornings are always spent sleeping.
i still love the night breeze, the night lights, the sounds.
just take off your glasses if you're short sighted
and just look at all the lights and sounds,
the sound of cars, the sound of silence, and the sound
of your breathing and you heart beat.

its easy to forget all the simple things in life
when you occupied with stuff. The advice i always give myself
is "Just wait a few hour and the day will be over".

Time doesn't really mean much to me.
its the things i do that really matters.
like the small things or big projects.

schools almost over. it feels..... strange.
but i feel happy leaving anyway.
after everything, i think i should get a job,
i'll have too much free time, and i'll be rotting myself at home.
so might as well earn cash and do something useful.

my computer's internet is down and i can't upload any pictures.
thats the whole reason why i cant put pictures. so...... sorry

ok. i'm feeling tired already so. good night.

Last words:
Don't forget to enjoy your youth.

2008-09-20T04:00:00.003+08:00

Today has nothing special

hey there ppl who are reading,
hope everyone is in the best of health

I know my blog is boring and stuff but
i have nothing haha. just random crap .

anyways, if u don't want to read my blog then...
then don't! haha. its not like ur being forced,
this place is for me to put dumb crap in it anyways.
so don't mind me, just continue with your life.

dont even think of wasting your time, haha.

ok time to update with these following days.

happy 7 :)

You won't believe it but
I Bought...........................girl guides cookies! LOL

i never thought i would even think of giving it a try.
at first, i thought they were like just normal cookies so
i didnt bother. but now that i've tasted them.....
THEY ARE BLOODY NICE MAN!!!!!! hahahaha. well not so but
its very delicious. take one then u will feel like u want another. haha.

i just want to say.
GOOD JOB!!!!!!!!
in selling and everything.

today i went to joo chiat complex and
bought my baju kurong.
today my whole family is going to wear BLUE
havent bought my second baju kurong so....
no worries. theres plenty of time to buy.

then after midnight me and my family went to west coast
to take a break at macs and get a drink and such.
right after that we walked along the water and
had fun at the obstacle course there. my mom and dad
even joined in. haha. first time see parents having fun there.
at that time it was already 1am+.

then here i am. laying on my bed using the laptop
typing this post. its now currently 4.21am.

i'll just type some random shit next time.
got to get atleast 15 minutes of sleep.
nites.

words/sentence/ advice of the day:
Hold on to the things that are worth fighting for.
and if you don't have an attitude problem, then
you're a friend worth my trust.

2008-09-13T07:02:00.003+08:00

Life?

hey there everyone who is reading this,
a very good morning to all,
i still can't sleep, haha.
i just had a random thought.

have u ever thought of the main
thing that makes people unhappy?
Tommy told me that its money,
but i think its the selfish and greedy
acts of others that contribute to sadness i guess

ok what Tommy said is sort of right.
almost everything revolves around money.
it causes bankruptcy, causes people to life in a poor state.
make people slave for hours to earn money.

why do we try to earn money,
simply to have better lives.
its because of this we must study hard
for 'O' and 'N' levels to get a course thats
gives us good jobs with good salaries in future
so that we could have enough money to
support a family.

now in my opinion, its the selfish acts and greed
that plagues the hearts of people.
there are super rich people who are stingy and greedy.
if they were to think of others and just help
people in their times of need, it would make
the world a slightly better place

and the thought that has been in this head of mine was,
if we eliminate the need for money,
then life would be so much simpler.

Haven't anyone of your imagined a world like this.
everyone just giving and sharing,
without the thought of greed.
no one fighting for others peoples possessions.
all living in peace with each other.
no blood would shed for others money
or valuables. everyone learns the meaning of sharing.
just living in a simple life with no one trying to
kill each other.

for me, just getting a sincere smile is a great gift
to me. the first step to making the world a better
place is to start small.

be kind to the surrounding around you
and never neglect them.

i just realized something that hasn't been done
and i would like to share.

when was the last time you've ever smelled the flowers?
when was the last time you've ever cared a something?
when was the last time you've helped something like a hungry and defend less cat?
when was the last time you've taken in the fresh air?
when was the last time you've appreciate the fresh smell after the rain?

and also a list of have you
they are:

have you given care to the things that can't protect themselves?
have you given help to those who needed it?
have you've made an effort to try to make others happy?
have you ever cared for something thats worth protecting?
have you found your reason in continuing life?
have you been a selfish and greedy person lately?
have you ever thought that the next day could be your last?

come to think about it, if we were to leave the next day,
what do we want to be remembered as?

in my opinion, i just want to be remembered
as the boy who tried to make a difference in your
life.

now what i ask of you, my readers, is to
be happy that you even have a life
and don't you dare take for granted the
things that were given to you like
the clothes you wear, the things you eat,
the things you buy, the bed that you sleep on,
the computers and gadgets you have.

i want you to take in consideration
that all of these cost money,
and they are not cheap,
have you counted the cost of all the things that you have?

so.... in other words love your parents,
they have been working to make sure you are properly fed
and clothed with a good education.
the worst thing to me is to fail them
and that i've let them down

well love them no matter how fierce they are,
how strict they are, well they are strict with a reason,
and most importantly love them for they are your parents,
even if you were adopted and aren't your bio-parents but
parents are parents.

so mom and dad, i love you guys :)
thanks for all the freedom and trust
that you've given me.

okay i think i should stop.
hahaha. wow. sure had a lot to talk, haha. enough for today.
have a pleasant day.

sentence/phrase/words of the day:

if you held your breath when you're going down the elevator,
then........

words taken from......my girl, that Korean drama

damn it! i forget the actual and correct words but
gosh the show was very touching.
made me............cry.

goodbye readers.

2008-09-11T17:14:00.002+08:00

My Reflection?

last night, i just thought to myself,
like always, what ITE course i would take.
its just simple logic, how can i be happy
with myself if i just go to a course i am not
happy in.

then it also hits me,
which campus am i going to,
my gosh, i haven't plan my future yet.
i mean, i'm already taking my exam
and i don't know which ITE i want.
well thats the only option i have actually, haha.

And at around......"i don't know what time" at night.
i just stood in front of the mirror,
then i think of "what do i see myself doing"
next "would i be happy?"

at the end i saw myself as.......
An Architect?
hahaha. that was what i suddenly saw. hahaha.
shocked me man!!! LOL.

As for today, i think i passed
my Elements of Office Practical.
i'm sure i did well.

now i have a 18 Days break until my next paper!!!!!
MUAHAHHAHAHAA!!!!!!!

but now the question is,
what the heck am i going to do during my free time?
study? haha!

Alright. thats it for today.
should probably do something USEFUL
ok off i go now. bye

2008-09-10T13:02:00.001+08:00

I just think this song is nice :)

All Time Low - six feet under the stars

time to lay claim to the evidence
finger prints sold me out
but our footprints wash away
From the docks downtown
and it’s been getting late for days
and I think myself deserving of
a little time off,
we can kick it here for hours and
just mouth off about the world
and how we know it’s going straight to hell
pass me another bottle honey, the Jaeger's so sweet
but if it keeps you around, then I’m down

Meet me on Thames Street
I’ll take you out, though I’m hardly worth your time
In the cold you look so fierce but I’m warm enough
Because the tension’s like a fire
We’ll hit
South Broadway in a matter of minutes
And like a bad movie, I’ll drop a line
Fall in the grave I’ve been digging myself,
But there’s room for two
Six feet under the stars

I should have known better than to call you out
[on a night like this, a night like this]
If not for you, I know I’d tear this place to the ground
[but I’m alright like this, alright like this]
I’m gonna roll the dice before you sober up and get gone
[I’m always in over my head]

Thames Street
I’ll take you out, though I’m hardly worth your time
In the cold you look so fierce but I’m warm enough

Because the tension’s like a fire
We’ll hit
South Broadway in a matter of minutes
And like a bad movie, I’ll drop a line
Fall in the grave I’ve been digging myself,
But there’s room for two
Six feet under the stars

time to lay claim to the evidence
finger prints sold me out
but our foot prints washed away
I’m guilty but I’m safe for one more day
overdressed and underage
[what a let down]
do you really need to see an id?
This is embarrassing as hell
[what a let down]
but i can cover for it so well
When we’re six feet under the stars

Thames Street
I’ll take you out, though I’m hardly worth your time
In the cold you look so fierce but I’m warm enough
Because the tension’s like a fire
We’ll hit
South Broadway in a matter of minutes
And like a bad movie, I’ll drop a line
Fall in the grave I’ve been digging myself,
But there’s room for two
Six feet under the stars

Six feet under the stars
Six feet under the stars

will blog next time,
see you all when i see you all.

2008-09-09T22:59:00.003+08:00

I've Made It!!!!!!!

HOOOOORAYYY!!!!!
I have great news!!!!!
i did great for my 'N' level papers so far!!!!!!
hooraayy!!!!!
hahaa. for my technical stream, its L1B2
meaning language(English) and best 2 subjects,
in other words, i need to pass English
and just 2 subjects then I'm good to go!

so now, my English,
i am totally confident i can get an A,
my Dnt project has already
got me an A, and now today,
was computer applications,

i was almost late, hahhaa,
i woke up at 7:10 am,
i was suppose to report in school at 7:30am.
hahaha. it was crazy man! but in the end
when i sat for my practical today,
i have a good feeling i can get at least 70+ or higher.

OH YAH!!! my Malay papers!!!
they were do-able!!!!!!
if it comes to malay, i suck!
but not on my N level paper,
i could actually understand everything!
and i could answer confidently some more!

HOHOHO!!!!!
NEVER DOUBT AMIR!!!!!!!!!
Muahhahahahaha!!!!!

my next paper is this Thursday and the
exams will continue on the 29th
so that means, from the 11 to 29th,
i wont be in school. hohoho!
i will be sleeping like a bear hibernating in a cave.
hahaha.

well this Thursday is my
elements of office applications practical,
hope this lucky streak will last,

For those who are still having their Examinations,
all the best to all of you!
i really mean it, do your best!!!!!!!

good luck.

2008-08-30T11:23:00.003+08:00

Motivation!!!!!

first thing first!
HAPPY BELATED TEACHERS DAY

haha. i was too tired to post last night. haha.
well yesterday was... fine.
time suddenly felt like time moved slowly.
i was so restless to get out and do something crazy
or just plain old dumb. haha.

i went to the Comex at Suntec City
with my brother and my dad.
there, i saw the PS3!!!!!!
it was like super cool man!!!
the games were really superb!

then went to riverside point to eat
at this Indonesian restaurant.
i ate till i couldn't eat anymore.
the food is great there.

oh yeah!!!! when i left the school,
i met up with the cat under my block!
at the time it rained
and i saw the cat shivering.
so i came to it and pat the cat.
then she went on my lap
and then she slept there
as shown in the picture.
her eye was full of that yellow thing,
i forgot the name.
i cleaned her eyes with a tissue
the tongue was sticking out.
the when i had to go. i bought her food
and left for Friday prayers

that was sort of the nicest thing i did since...
i don't know when. haha.

then after prayers i met up with Afiq and Azfar.
we were like, the three amigos, the three stooges,
the three little pigs, the three blind mice,

Anyways that was it for yesterday.
now lets see what i'll have today.
hoping for something to happen.
just anything to make my day.
have a nice day people.

Words of the day:

Don't Eat Too Much Food!!!
be ready for fasting month.

2008-08-27T23:02:00.002+08:00

Time

Again, random thoughts
i want to just speak out.
well i wanna talk about time.

to me. time is just.... time.
you cant stop time. its impossible.
if there is a machine to stop time,
i would start a riot and destroy it.

if there is such a machine then.
all the risks in life would
have been for nothing.
i dont ever want to
do things twice.

each time you are reading
this is also a waste of time.
i counted that from the
moment we were born,
we have 2,488,320,000 seconds
till we are 80 years old.
so every second counts in life.

eh wait a minute.
why am i wasting my time typing,
haha. i think i should do something else.
haha. bye for now.

2008-08-23T00:46:00.003+08:00

hey everyone, i just got back home,
and i guess my blog is collecting dust,
i think i said before, i'm busy.
well here are lyrics to Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold:

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Request from a friend. hehe. have fun.
goodbye and wish me luck in my exams. :)

thinking of you always, good luck in exams

2008-08-17T20:43:00.001+08:00

WOOOHOOOO!!!!!!

i am actually busy doing stuff right
now but they can wait. for now.....

HAPPY SIX MONTHS!!!!!!!!
hahahaha. half a year!!!!!!!
hehehehehehee!!!!!!!
will continue loving you :)

bye everyone.

2008-08-16T12:34:00.002+08:00

Busy

sorry everyone,
i just dun have time to blog
very often anymore so....
yea. haha. been real busy with stuff
and school.

i got to go to religious class now so, see ya.
take care alright.

2008-08-08T18:18:00.006+08:00

One Of The Best Days Of My Life

Today was the National Day Concert!!!!
hahaha. i performed in Band Category.
i played two song, Always You - amber pacific. which was dedicated to you
and Umbrella - All Time Low.
This concert meant alot to me because
its the very last talent time concert i'll
every play as a Hua Yi student.
and i sang my heart out till a tear came out,
it felt great with everyone supports and cheering me on.
I can never forget the experience i had on the stage
as a guitarist.

the sweetest part of everything is that MY BAND WON!!!!!!!!
and we all Oh Yah Pe Yah Som for the throphy.
and i get to keep it!!!!!!!! WOOOHOOOO!!!!!!
i was sooo happy! its like all my hard work paid off.

Before i Carry on further,
Thank you Yazid for coming and supporting me!
the concert meant alot to me.
Thank you everyone out there who cheered me on out there.
you guys made a big difference.
Thank You dearie, though we never spoke to each other much. but the thought of you made me want to work harder. to impress, to care and to love.
before i got out of the stage i felt like i wanted to vomit
but when i was out and heard people screaming my
name. everything felt normal and i didnt want to vomit anymore.

heres some pictures.
i don't have solo pictures of me on stage
but these will do:

as you can see nick did The Joker make-up
and i wore a "i love Singapore" shirt. hahaha.

The band backstage

And the band and my brother

My Last Trophy

the certificate, quite nice.

After the concert, i went to the DnT workshop
to finish up on my project.
everything is working out right.
slowly but surely i will get there to my goal.
i'm off to enjoy this day while i'm in this mood.
good bye.

hope i made u happy abit.

2008-08-07T19:12:00.003+08:00

Confirmed To Be Dead

So bloody stress with everything
ok first thing first,
here are my prelim results:

English - Grade A
Malay - Grade C
Elements of office - Grade C
Maths - Grade C
Design And technology - Grade C
Computer applications - Grade B

And my N level DnT project is still
incomplete. and i am left with 4 DAYS!!!
theres not enough time.
the words failure is becoming clearer.
how am i going to compete with the
whole of Singapore for a ITE college
with grades like those?
So many C's, i've never gotten that many before.

feeling depressed inside,
i'll never show anyone my sad side.
i will put on a smile.
today i acted to be happy and crazy,
but deep inside i was
trying to die as always.

just let me be for awhile.
i'll cope on my own,
no point talking to me,
i'll just be negative.
Tommy is there to help
so no worries.

going off to attempt to finish my
DnT folio, goodbye

2008-08-04T00:35:00.003+08:00

Introduction

time to let you guys know
who is this cat i've been with
these days. My best friend.
just now, at around 10pm,
she was waiting for me at
my staircase. super cute.
haha.

i gave her food and a drink of water.
she only eats ocean fish,
any other type of food,
and she won't eat.
haha.

sure you guys would think,
"got nothing better to do is it!!!"
hahaha. but i do have my own stuff to do.
i just make time for other things like this.
good time management is the key!
hahaha.

well bye for now.
i'll wait for you.
just do what you have to do.
Loves...

2008-08-03T00:24:00.004+08:00

Fireworks

hey blog,
well i started my day
at the DnT workshop
in the morning, then religious class
at the afternoon, it ended at 4.30pm.

then i got home at 5pm and i thought,
should i just go and watch the fireworks?
at the end i just didn't think and left the house,
i didn't think anyone would be free to go out because
its last minute anyways, so i went alone
with Tommy.

i went to marina rooftop and
watch the fireworks from there
and the fireworks was superb,
you have to see it to know, pictures
cannot show you how nice they are.

well i just took a few, the pictures aren't that great anyways,

while i was walking i saw this,

the fireworks:

its nicer if u see it with your own eyes

if you use your imagination abit,
you could see an elephant. lol!

well those were the only photos of today.
but at the end of the day,
during the train ride back,
it felt kinda lonely,

oh well can't have everything
perfect in life, haha.
and tomorrow will just be another day.
Days feel like years sometimes.
see you.

I'm still in love.

2008-07-28T23:42:00.002+08:00

Animals

its been nights now that i have
been together with this cute
kitty.

lets see. i'll describe her to you,
she has black and white fur.
and always meow outside my house.
well from the first floor, i live on the second.

and the best thing is that shes very furry.
and when she meows at me,
its super cute!

and theres three other cats
under my block.
there is this white furred cat.
but she's very fierce
and kept hissing and tried to scratch me

from now on, the cat under my
block is my second best friend
the first is Tommy. haha.

ever since i heard my friend
turned vegetarian, i felt like i wanted to join
him. i mean, chicken and beef are super tasty.
but they are also alive, and living.

imagine, what if one day,
something big and scary
keeps eating humans
as a favourite delicacy.
and there is nothing we could do
about it.

just put yourself in their
shoes. do you have any
idea how frightening it
is to know that u are going to
be killed and your body is going
to be eaten.

i want to try to switch to
vegetarian but its just too hard,
i tried and i only lasted
5 days. but i am really trying to reduce my
meat intake.

well just have sympathy for them.
i'm just attempting to care more
for animals.

hey if you're reading this then,
hey i am seriously there for you,
just give me a call or msg, and
nowadays i don't want to disturb you
because of exams, but there is no doubt
that i am here for you if you need me.
i will run to you if you need me,
and i will pick up your calls as soon as possible.
no matter what time. i will wait patiently for you...

Words/sentence of the day:

where are you,
and i'm so sorry,
i cannot sleep,
i cannot dream tonight.

words taken from the song i miss you - blink 182

2008-07-28T23:10:00.002+08:00

Trying

Do not let yourself drown
in your own disappointments.
you'll just waste alot of time
crying, i just still can't forget
that day when the soccer team
lost in the tournament because of me.

that tournament was my last
as a Hua Yi Goal Keeper.
and i failed. its stills haunt me.

oh well. i got to put it behind me,
i know i won't be-able to be the very best
for everyone, but i am trying,
i just don't want to go through
that experience again.
knowing that i let everyone down.

and so what am i doing,
i am training my body to tip top shape.
and make sure i am seriously fit for anything,
and strong enough for if anyone picks a fight.
seriously man, attitude problem man.

well when i was, in primary school,
people kept bullying me and
kept pushing me around
because i was defenseless, small and fat.
and i just hated myself.

and now i am big and strong, woohooo!
nowadays, no one dares to
even lay a finger on me cause i can
and will beat them to the ground.

i just want peace,
its like i got to get out of here.
well thats what i think my body wants.
i think there is a something
great just waiting to happen.
i'll just wait for that day to come.
there has to be something
special at the end of everything.

2008-07-28T00:33:00.002+08:00

Eclipse

i wonder if we'll be-able
to see it on the 1st of August.
it must be nice, i think.
i saw this at the yahoo
homepage but i didn't bother reading
the article about it.

i wish i could see it,
its not like everyday that it comes right.

anyways, today, i burnt my
finger from ironing my uniform.
will not explain how i got burnt,
too embarrassing,
the iron hit my middle finger
and it hurts so bad,

and just now, when i was feeding
the cat that i made friends with,
the cat food's sharp tin cut my thumb.
thats twice this week,
but seeing the cat happy and stuff,
i guess its worth it,
the cat now runs together with
me when i get out of the house.
its super cute.

and shes always there
during those lonesome nights
its fun to play with the cat at night,
haha, call me weird or whatever,
feeding cats ain't so bad.

other than that, everything was....... normal....

2008-07-26T00:02:00.002+08:00

Tommy here,
been a long time since i blogged.
well today Amir didn't have anything to do
coz he doesn't have an exam paper.
so he went to the DnT workshop from 8am-12noon
and i got to say, he really works hard in his DnT.

after that, Amir and me went to
peninsula to buy a guitar strap ans guitar picks.
one of them was a design of a dice covered in roses.
it looked cool.

the train ride back felt like time didn't move at all.
then went home and tested out the stuff bought at peninsula,
and thats it for today.

hope you guys are having a better day then we had
byes

2008-07-24T20:31:00.002+08:00

Nothing

Good evening readers, hehe
i got nothing to blog about,
i wanted to open topic but still got nothing.
so i'll just talk about today.

Today i had Maths paper 1.
bloody frustrating man,
i forgot i think about two formula.
and b4 times up, i counted the ones
that i will confirm get correct, and
the marks that i know will get is
around 35-40 marks out of 50 mark
thats a pass!!! hahaha.

and then after the exam,
i forgot something important,
today was my Malay N level Oral!!!
i was like, Holy Cow!!!!
i can't believe i forgot something like this.

well Oral, i stumbled on my words
during the conversation. but my reading was quite great.
but the teacher,
she spoke like a bullet train i tell you.
i was like having trouble understanding
so in the end, i try to catch the key points
of her questions and answer accordingly,
so frightened man, she was fierce.

well anyways,
I'm finally gonna complete my DnT project!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
hahaha. once its done, i can skip his class
and loiter around, hahahaha!
The DnT theory must study on your own one,
the book is super big and no point
having my teacher going through it
and wasting alot of time.

he just everything is in the book.
thats all to it. all i have to do
to pass DnT i to read. hahaha.
talk about simplicity.

and after the whole day in school.
i went home and slept.
and now here i am, blogging,

i got nothing for today so
goodnight. readers. haha.

words/sentences of the day:

i miss you

words taken from my head again

2008-07-23T00:14:00.002+08:00

Anger

today's topic, Anger,
it is a strong feeling of displeasure.
okay people, i admit,
i can throw tantrums easily.
and i know its not a good thing.

and knowing all of this,
i want to try, i'm willing to try.
but having a backbone or trying to defend
for my own wants is okay and fair i guess.
i mean, not nice to force people to
do things you don't like right.

i can be rude at times
whether its at school or home.
but i want to try. so if i one day give up.
i can't say i didn't try.

last year, when i was really really
*something* i get so angry and frustrated
so easily and mad, especially when
people disturbs me in class.

people throw paper balls at me,
i throw chairs at them.
if anyone hits me in the back by surprised,
i'll get my revenge by hitting
them with a weapon on their back.
the point is, if anyone messes with me,
i will return the favour ten fold.

but i want to change that,
like really do, I've been reading about
stuff and watching shows
and in the end of most shows.
theres always a"control your inner demon"
or"revenge is never right" or any other stuff like that.

well lately, i think i've been
making steady and good progress.
i have learnt how to just take a hit
or just let it go when someone talks shit at me.
and most importantly, i have never beaten up anyone
since, i don't know how long.

and you know whats the key
to self-control?
its love and care, having a conscious.
knowing the consequences of losing control and go crazy

to tell you the truth, i don't think
i am that strong myself.
there are people more fierce than me.
but when a person losses his mind and goes
in a total state of anger and craze,
anything can happen.

what i'm saying is, anyone can fight.
and when i go crazy, i won't be-able to control
my own strength and could beat someone
to a bloody pulp. but the thought of
destroying the trust and especially faith of others in
me really haunts me, and thats why i want
to stop being so hot-tempered.

the people who are in my
mind straight away before i
do anything is my Friend and my parents.
they are innocent and have done nothing
wrong to me. knowing they would hate me and
such would be truly unbearable.
and thats what i fear the most.
i don't care if my body get beaten up to the ground.
because nothing else matters.

like a saying i heard once.
"a scar or a wound will heal.
but a hit to the mind might not"
forgot where i hear it.

like a scar would definitely heal and
you won't feel the pain in time
but somethings can really haunt you
for the rest of your life.
and i don't want to do things that i regret
and would bite me in the a**

alright its 1.06Am
i better get some sleep, nites.

just seeing you or seeing you waving hi to me can make me melt inside

words/sentence of the day:

being angry about the past has no meaning

words taken from my thoughts.

2008-07-21T23:37:00.003+08:00

Imagining

First thing first,
i changed my blog skin, All Thanks To The Most Amazing Person In The World!
its nice and i'm very happy with it.
not sarcasm. being truthful here.

Anyways, time for me to open topic.
today, i'm gonna talk about
Design and Technology!
my favourite subject.

alright, the main reason why i chose
D&T is because theres always a feeling of great
satisfaction when completing a work piece.
not because i have friends in there or anything.
i chose it because i want it.
i rather do nothing than do something that i hate.

but now, i have a textbook that has
444 pages and my teacher says that
the whole book will be tested.
i guess its normal, N levels
is an exams that sees what u have learnt
since secondary one.
so i don't think i should complain.

now D&T just basically
takes lots of imagination,
hard work and commitment.
some people give up half way.
some just hate the dirt and such.

but i make it a point
to wear a D&T apron and wash my
hands and face when leaving the workshop.
i'm hygienic when it comes to
the cleanliness of my uniform in the workshop.
if i get rust stains on my shirt,
i would be shouting NOOO!!!!! continuously.
i don't want to be seen as a dirty boy. haha.

you need to have lots of idea and imagination
in order to even start something.
i've seen my seniors works and
i decided to make a ferris wheel
because no one else would
make it and its not that simple.
and i'll have a good challenge
so everything would be worth it.

some advice to those who are wanting to go to D&T
"DON NOT TAKE YOUR TIME! FINISH IT ASAP!!!!"

its late now, and tomorrow is an important day.
so sleep tight readers.

words/sentence of the day:

no use crying over spilled milk

words taken from somewhere, can't remember.

you have my total support in everything you do
gutes Glück für alles

2008-07-20T23:10:00.004+08:00

The Star In The Sky

i'm back everyone,
as the blog title says
gonna talk about stars

well what do you think?
do you guys believe in
shooting stars?

i have a feeling it does work.
its like those words from
Kung Fu Panda, its special
only if u believe its special.

now that i think about it,
if i were to see a shooting star,
what would i wish for?
i guess i'll go plan on what i really
and truly want in my life.

if i'm not wrong, i heard stars
are just rocks in outer-space.
i wonder if stars can fall down to earth?
but having it fall down from the sky means,
it'll fall down like an asteroid.
actually, i've never seen a shooting star before.
i really hope to see it on a nice quiet night.

since going to the moon on space shuttles
are possible, then maybe one day,
all of us might be living in other planets
and it would be possible touch the stars
and even see shooting stars,
a better view i think.

well thats what imagine i guess. haha.
since the earth is dying,
we can slow down the process,
but as time goes by,
we cannot stop earth from dying out.
and we as humans will continue to
grow in numbers. i mean
theres billions of people in the world.

well to me, the moon and the stars are beautiful. beautiful as u my dear. hehe :)
when i was in Australia, visiting my Aunt,
the night sky was filled with star,
not satellites. and the moon was big,
and at night i was cool and breezy.
when i was there, i was
constantly thinking of you
and wished that we could be together
gaze at the stars.
it was really beautiful.

its getting late and i have school tomorrow.
i should get some sleep so goodnight.

words/sentence/phrase of the day:

for you i bleed myself

words taken from the song yellow- coldplay
i know, old song, but i remembered some stuff when i hear the song

2008-07-20T00:17:00.003+08:00

A leaf Changing Colours

hey everyone reading
thank you for reading,
although this blog is
really meant for me to
place what i have locked up
in my mind.

To the update,
well the whole left side of my body
is still weak and injured
from the last soccer match i had
i got two scraps on my legs and arm
and a muscle ache on my left shoulder.
i guess i stretched my arm out
to the limit. and my wrist hurt too though,
Arh, who cares, theres still more injuries to come
hahaha.

other than that, today was a pretty ok day.
i skipped my religious class today for
obvious reasons, my body too weak,
and lazy, haha.

so instead i stayed home and practiced
the guitar for my classical guitar class.
the song are getting nicer,
when your in grade one,
they made me place children's songs.
it was super boring,

but now I'm playing
old classical songs, and i would never
skip my guitar classes because
the fees are 60+ a month.
and they keep increasing as
you grade up. now I'm on grade 2!

after practicing the whole day,
i decided to change wallpaper
of my laptop, its an anime called
"Sergeant Keroro" !!!!
haha. its my favourite for now.
it just funny. its about
aliens who were stranded
on earth after a failed
attempt to conquer the earth.

And after all that, i played PS2 till now.
and here i am, blogging.
there you go, thats what i did the for the day.

Oh yah! for you Info, there is a website
that has every TV-show, latest movies and
all most all the Anime you could think of.
its called "http://www.sidereel.com/_home"
just explore the site for any show you want,
Sorry people,
no Indon/japanese/korean/hisdustan dramas. haha. :)
WARNING: watching shows is time consuming
and could cause you to waste alot of time.

The movies i really want to watch are
Dark Knight and hellboy 2.
they seem nice.

In the dark knight, the one who acted as
The Joker A.K.A Heath Ledger died after the
whole movie was made. it was really sad.
looking at the movie trailers,
he really was meant for the part.
i mean, no one else could be that psychotic
and do that evil laugh like he did.

well its getting late, i go off now,
till next time people.
wanted to talk about random topics,
i'll just leave it for later i guess.
bye.

words/sentence/phrase of the day:

Cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream would never do,
I'd still miss you babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.

words taken from the song I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing - Aerosmith
its memorable song. legend, haha.

loves you lots

2008-07-18T23:18:00.004+08:00

Hey everyone,
time to blog,

well today, there was this thing in school
that if u recycle 1kg of newspaper,
you earn one lucky draw ticket
and stand a chance to win a movie ticket,

my friends and I collected 54 KG of newspaper.
it was as tall as my class mate, Gek Hong.
my team were Darwin, Farhan, Chang you,
Wei Ye and Wakil.*all my classmates*
and it was Darwin's and my idea to do the whole thing.

when we wanted to send the newspaper to the booth,
my other classmates go and act like they helped,
and one of them who didn't even helped one bit
got the ticket, do you know how it feels,
we worked so bloody hard to get those newspapers.
and having someone else ripping off our
hard work is just too much.

my team went around the
whole school getting newspapers.
and my team agreed to give the ticket to
me if won, i told them if it was ok.
and they said "you need it my friend"
and they were understanding.
its not that i'm trying to be greedy.
i have my reasons.
oh well, at least i got a ticket of my own.
so i shouldn't be that much angry.
I think there will be another chance, i hope

actually, the newspaper thing, i did it for us,
i wanted two tickets so that we could be together
and watch a movie together after the exams
Can't say i didn't try.

And through everything,
i just want to say, THANK YOU Guys!!!
i will never forget all of your kindness.

then after school, i went to pray
and then i went home and watched
Sergeant Keroro!!!!!
lets just say, i like the show.
its an anime.

and thats it for today.
have a nice day tomorrow
my friends and readers
bye.

I'm willing to try anything
to make you happy

Words/sentences/phrases of the day:

i know you've been locked out of sight
all these years like me, my friend

word taken from the movie
Sweeney Todd the demon barber of fleets street

2008-07-17T20:14:00.002+08:00

Mind At Ease

Wow! i could finally focus.
and today's match was a draw!!!!
not a lost!!! wooohooo
4-4 score.

i feel so relieved that i didn't lose.
and it was so fun especially with the teachers,
that P.E. Teacher stood at my goalpost,
and gave good pointers and help me with the timing.
and he helped greatly, without his guidance,
i think 2 goals would have been in.
Well Sorry i sort of forget your name
i'll ask him for his name tomorrow
but Thank you man!!!!!!

we actually played together on the field that time,
and he was a superb goal keeper,
if my memory is right, he said he was the
NIE Goal keeper, so that explains why
he is superbly good.

well today's match, was quite evenly matched.
and the opponent was quite good at spreading
their team, and exploiting the weakness of the team.
there was one part that our defense was weak on the
right and they went and all-out attack on the right.
i was like WTF, haha.

oh well atleast i didn't failed miserably to bring glory to the team.
and that penalty, ARH!!!!!!!! i had the right side, and the ball was too fast
my gosh!!!! i was the ball going there!!!! Damn it!!!!!

as for the rest, today seemed okay
well don't think I've forgotten but
happy anniversary! though i couldn't
been there with you or for you or get
you something but i love you and will
continue staying loyal and committed
to you for as long as my life can let me to

Words/sentence/phrase of the day:

everything is in practice and a little bit of luck

words taken from.....i forgot, haha.

2008-07-16T20:33:00.003+08:00

A Normal Day

wow! nothing happened today,
like yeah! haha.
hooray! not being sarcastic.
like nothing life threatening
or being scolded and
being sad about anything.

now that i think about it,
today Is a happy day!!!
hahaaha. so i guess, the only
part left of the day is night time.
goodnight people.
the only thing i want to change
today is that if only i could
make our conversation much better.
i suck at such things. sorry

words/sentence/phrases of the day

Just Like Me They Long To Be
Close To You...

words taken from the song close to you - the carpenters

2008-07-15T20:40:00.003+08:00

Redemption

Glad everything back to
normal. well almost,
now i can say, everything
is going to be fine.

Today i stayed back to
try and complete my ferris wheel.
but from the looks of things,
i am about to complete the structure
of the whole thing. my deadline is on the 13 August.
when its complete, i'll go take a picture and post it.

and just now, Mr Lee messaged me to play Thanks for the heads up:)
soccer with his team against some class,
not sure who but playing with him and the teachers
its such and pleasure to play with them.
like there is no pressure nor stress.
or worrying about winning or losing,
they care more about having fun than
losing or winning.

well the match starts at 4pm so,
hope thats there no rain tomorrow
at night please do. haha.
hope something good or happy or
even unexpected will happen.
who knows. just now sadness.
it sucks eggs.
hahaha. loves you. funny joke u had there!
will blog next time, see ya.

words/sentences/phrases of the day:

Sorry I'm Not Home Right Now,
Walking In A Spider Web

Words Taken from the song - spiderwebs - no doubt
haha its a funny song

2008-07-13T21:47:00.002+08:00

Aliens Exist?

what do you think?
i mean, we can't be the only
living things in the whole
Universe!

i think they are real,
and maybe they are just like us.
think of it this way,
all this time we have been thinking,
they are deformed and evil.

how about us, we have been
thought not to judge a book by its cover,
and if they speak in a way thats impossible
to understand, they we have been living
with different races and its impossible to learn
all the language in one lifetime.
it would be as if they are speaking in a
foreign language.

well these are just my thoughts of
aliens. think of it this way.
exchange the roles of humans with aliens,
and aliens for humans,
if we, the aliens see a human,
we would capture it, cut it open,
put it in tests and such.

so i guess its normal if aliens abduct
humans. we would do the same. haha.
well i sure hope they are friendly.
who knows, maybe they just mean no harm.
humans are curious beings,
i think they are curious being too.

well, i thought of this topic
from the song Aliens Exist - blink 182
then i thought, do they really exist.

well thats all for tonight,
will blog next time,
see ya.

2008-07-13T01:05:00.003+08:00

Just Another Night

well i think I've already said that
my legs were cramped to the core,
i could barely walk properly.
so i decided to skip religious class.
its that serious,

then while i was home,
my dad asked me to go to a wedding,
i was like laying down and he asked me that,
and i just couldn't say no,
man i hate myself for being soo... nice?

i thought he would park the car near the
wedding but he park the car like
super far away from the wedding
my legs were killing me, but when i reached there,
i was at ease when i sat down on the chair.

next time, i'll make plans for my weekends
so that i could just escape the same thing.
like the saying goes "learn from your mistakes"
so even if i am free on weekends,
i would stay the hell away from home.
For your info, the wedding was at pasir ris.

then when i was in the car,
my parents were fighting,
right in front of my eyes,
it was so scary, i just curled
up in the corner of the car.
i felt like i never existed in the car.
i didn't have my brother nor my sister to help me.
i felt alone. never had i felt so small and afraid
of my parents.

then when my parents stopped by at
jurong point to pick up my moms laundry
from the cleaners, i got off the car,
i hate to hear such stuff, so i didn't care.
so i took the bus home and walked slowly.
like a zombie.

i didn't go home straight of course.
when im outside, might as well stay outside.
when there is no walls, no cages, no chains
restricting your movement.
hey if it helps me with my mind then,
what the hell, why not right. haha.

well i went to west coast and sat at the water breaker.
it was cooling with lots of wind,
i didn't care about the pain in my legs.
i was scary at some point, walking in the dark alone.
but hey, i'm still in one piece right. haha.

then went home at like, i don't know what time,
and here i am, on the computer.
well i'm planing to get out of the house tomorrow
i don't know where yet, but hopefully far.
i just want to be out till.... lets say 7? haha.

And before i go, Tommy,
u may be my most reliable friend
in the whole wide world
and i am thankful i found you
but you are just strange. haha.
oh well who am i to judge you. hahaha.

oh yeah, here's a big note: if anyone who
is my friend needs help, even at 3am,
i will come to your aid and give u a helping hand.
whether its delivering items or fending off
people who are beating you up.
no matter where you are. only limitation is,
you have to be in Singapore for me to get to you. haha.

sorry for the boring/sad posts lately. haha.
its normal to have sad days, or else i won't be human
i'll try to be more cheerful,
i hope....

just a hello is enough to make me happy : ]

words/sentence/phrase of the day:

I'm so happy coz today
i found my friends,
they're in my head.

words from the song lithium - Nirvana.
A real Classic. hehe.

2008-07-12T11:38:00.004+08:00

Pure Apologies

hey Amir here,
now i firstly, i admit i can get hot-tempered easily.
and i tend to do things without thinking,
gosh i almost picked up fights in school even.

i don't know what the hell is wrong with me lately.
its like i don't know myself anymore.
it just takes one hit on me and i will retaliate.
but i know if i beat up someone, i would just
get myself in trouble and screw up myself badly.

and now i want to take this time to apologize sincerely,
firstly to my brother whom i punched in the stomach in the car,
secondly to my dear sister, i almost elbowed your face and i am really sorry,

next to the people who i almost beat up, i really am sorry.
and i will only fight if anyone has a problem with me.
i will fight back obviously and i won't run away from anything.

thirdly to my soccer team, sorry guys i let u guys down.

and most importantly to you, i never mean to hurt you so
i just can't think properly these days.
but note that i will never doubt our relationship
and i really love you, i just don't know how.
you are the one that prevents me from doing unthinkable.
just a thought of you helps me go through the day.
and through everything that has happened,
i am sorry, truly, forgive me...

and to everyone that i have done wrong to,
i am completely sorry, and know that i don't
mean to bring harm to anyone.
and i will take all the blame and let you have it your way.

i am not that great of a person but
i am planning to try, so please don't be too hard on me.

today my body is badly tired and cramped,
both of my legs are cramped to the core *the calves*
i can't even walk properly.
so i think i wont be going out today.
i am reachable through my hand phone .
so anything just give me a call or a msg.

words/phrase/sentence of the day:

I don't care if it hurts, i wanna have control,
i want a perfect body, i want a perfect soul

words taken from the song creep - radiohead
my all time favorite song ever since primary school days.

2008-07-12T10:49:00.002+08:00

Regrets

warning:
long post, if u hate reading,
don't read this post. sorry no pictures.

regrets.....living with things that
you knew you could have done better
but failed to do so. Its so frustrating.
its like i concentrate real hard and it
just doesn't turns out right.

yesterday was full of disappointments.
Firstly in the morning, Cross-country,
i got 32 among 100+ students.
if i had only pushed more abit over my limit
i could have gotten 18th-20th position.
at the last stretch, my heart was breaking down,
my lungs were as though they were screaming out,
and i couldn't breathe right.
and then i fell, and that fall took away a lot of my strength
and about tens of people passed me,

then after everything, i did dumb things
to forget about it and calm myself down.
then i went home changed and pray.
after prayers i went for the hardest
soccer match of my life.

at first i thought i was up against
the second best team in west zone.
then it turns out to be the champion
team in east zone. that was more than enough
to throw off my concentration.
and then in the end of everything.
i got the thrashing of my life.
5-0......................
and all those goals,
really took a toll on my mental thinking.

and after the match, i reflected in the bus.
alright to understand,
me better for this part i'll put it in easier terms,
its like, everyone had complete faith and trust
in you and you let them down,
to all the goal keepers in the world,
i know how you truly feel when losing
an important soccer match.

after everything, i went to
sit at my favorite relax spot in my neighborhood
to calm myself down, i didn't
want to go home straight
because home had to much
items that could cause me to do the unthinkable

and when i was sitting down,
my dad called me and told me
they are celebrating my cousins birthday.
he's a close cousin of mine
so i went karaoke-ing at chinatown
area and drown my sorrows in singing
and everything turned around when i started sing
i was from sad and suicidally crazy to happy and calm :)
and i went home and i was knocked out.
well all i can say is everyone has their sad day.

2008-07-10T21:01:00.003+08:00

Missing The World

next week is my prelims.
and i wanted to blog but i didn't had time.
sure hope i pass. i sort of missed the rain sometimes.
i miss the cool breeze when i take the bicycle,
and i really missed the cold air in the afternoon,
they just don't come as often as it used to or even
worst, never at all.

And i always thought what life after Secondary life would be.
will i ever see my schoolmates again, will i be remembered?
and with that, thats the reason why i am so friendly,
so i would not be forgotten that easily. haha.
oh well, who cares what people think,

Today after school, i went to the DnT Workshop to
do some extra work on my ferris wheel.
and its quite big, and the bad news is,
my deadline is in August,

if only i could just complete everything that i need to do,
then i could enjoy life and be as free as a free bird.
still feel like i'm in a cage though, haha.

have you ever felt like you just want to
run away from everything and forget everything?
leaving all your possessions behind and just run.
getting away could really help the mind.
but we are all chained up by everything important,
and we couldn't leave.

well tomorrow i have a cross- country run and
i have a soccer match with some school.
i have no idea what school but all i know is i must not lose.
losing could leave a crushing blow to my mind and focus.
and if i make a mistake, i could cost the whole game,
and everyone would blame me. and i couldn't take that
kind of hate to myself.

i don't know whether i'll update soon but i'll try.
until next time

Words/phrases/sentences of the day:

But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know

words taken from the song blind - lifehouse

i will love you no matter what,
and i am loyal and committed to you.

2008-07-08T00:05:00.001+08:00

hey. Amir here.
and i am still alive!
haha. woohoo!.

First thing first,
THANK YOU GUYS!!!
without your help i would
have done alot of stupid things
which involved blood Donation

alright i went out with the guys and went ICE-SKATING!!!!!
just when life was being such a B****,
the best time with my best buddies happen,
they are such great guys, i mean, when everything seem to go wrong,
i could go to them to laugh the sadness away.
my trust-worthy friends.

well will blog more next time.
bye.

verse/phrase/sentence of the day:

Nothing That I've Done, Is As Simple as this line
but without you my life is incomplete.

words taken from the song International You Day - No Use For A Name

2008-07-07T00:45:00.003+08:00

Worthless

i feel so used up today.
i'll tell u later.right now. i feel alone.
like really no one to be with to have some laughs.
or fight about, share with or just get out of the house.
whenever I'm home, i feel like I'm inside a cage.

Sometimes i could see,
i everyones words are lies.
just pretending to be a friend.
So just do me a favor get out of my life.
words don't mean much to me anymore.
all you pretenders. two-faced liars.
i am deaf to your words.

for years i have always been kind.
trying to give sympathy and understanding.
but now i look back.
i shouldn't have given chances.

And now i feel stuck. i couldn't get out.
and every time when i'm home.
i would be asked to do stuff.
and when people ask me to do things,
deep inside of me keeps telling me
to say"Do It Yourself" i mean they're such a simple tasks.
And when i don't do the things asked of me.
i get *LOUD* voices attacking my ears.
and in the end i did the stuff anyways.

Enough is enough! from this day onwards.
i need to have a backbone, i need to say "NO!"
for too long have i been used and told to do things for others.
i HAVE my own needs and wants.
though it will be hard, but i MUST try. for my own sake.
even if it kills me. so just Shut the **** up.
I HATE TO BE BOSSED AROUND!!!

verse/phrase/sentence of the day:

Take the pain out of love,
and then love wont exist

words taken from the song THE ACADEMY IS...: Everything We Had

2008-07-03T01:12:00.017+08:00

Relief

i changed my blog skin
all thanks to murhani
if it weren't for her,
i would still be idiotically
reading instructions and stuff from the help search.
and from the copy paste thing, i learnt how to edit.
well she just said she copy and pasted the codes.
now I'm just wondering why i didn't
think of that in the first place! and it took me hours.
so....THANK YOU!

OKAY to the update!
today i thought it was preliminaries for English orals
then suddenly my friends told me,
its the N level oral examination!
it shocked me to death. well almost.

well anyways, when i sat in the school hall,
i felt ok. i sat and waited and i didn't fell any
stress or being afraid of screwing up.

but when they called my name.
my heart started to panic but my mind was ok.
it was like my heart was trying to jump out.
and my body knew if i screw this up,
i would screw up my years of
oral examinations and practices.

but i kept my focus and a concentrated mind,
and smiled throughout saying everything would be fine.
and you know what.

I THINK I PASS!!!!!
WOOOHOOO!!!!!!!!
it was easy. nothing compared
to Miss Tracy's practice papers.
i pronounced the words correctly,
and i didn't stumble on anything.
and the conversation was great.
at the end of everything the teachers said,
" are you an NA student who accidentally went into a NT class?"
i laughed to myself like crazy inside and replied
"well i did stuff that i regretted during my PSLE"
and they also said "impressive and well said" at the end of the conversation.

i have never felt soooo satisfied
about my oral in my life.
And i feel so alive.
its like everything paid-off

its getting late so i'll go to sleep.
tomorrow night, my sister is going
to treat my brother and me to a movie.
i think we're going to watch Hancock.
so till the next time Tommy or me are free to blog.

phrase/verse/sentence of the day:

you're ignoring me only because u love me

words taken from the cartoon The Fairly Odd Parents.
words said by Cosmo to Wanda.

Peace

2008-07-01T00:34:00.004+08:00

Peace

hey there everyone,
Amir here, just felt like blogging
well today got back to school.
felt like school ended during the 4 weeks break,
except for the moodle week.

And i just found out that
my Prelims for my English
oral in this Wednesday.
I think i can ace it, i hope

but through the days,
it feels like i am in need
of some peace in my head,
i just hope what I'm
having will clear up soon.

I won't elaborate on today but
to summarize everything.
today was not great at all.

phrase/verse/sentence of the day:

Did you ever wished you were somebody else

words taken from the song "The Difference Between Medicine and Poison is in the Dose" by Circa survive

Pictures

2008-06-28T02:31:00.006+08:00

hey Tommy here.
both Amir and I are tired right now but here
are some overdue pictures of Aceh.
a nice place, but the weather was
hotter than Singapore. well sort of
lazy and tired so i won't be placing
captions at the picture. but hey,
a picture/ photograph says a thousand words.
i think that is how its said,
oh well,
here they are. there are more pictures, but they're not nice.

phrase/verse/sentence of the day:

'Cause I am always where I need to be,

words taken from the song Always where i need to be - the kooks

Dreams

2008-06-26T02:19:00.003+08:00

hey world, i decided to post something.
since we don't want the blog
to be abandoned and such.

todays topic is about Dreams.
to me, in my opinion, they are
things that let you see what you always
wanted in your life. but there are sort
of dreams that are frightening,
these are obviously called nightmares.

i went around asking my friends randomly
and asked them what they dream of,
what they dream to have or dream to be.
most of them said to be wealthy,
others just say i haven't think of it.

For me, i just want a home,
a family with kids and a loving wife
to go home to everyday after work
with a stable salary to support
my whole family. a stable life.

i never ask much but i know this
dream is accomplish-able. well for now,
the main important things in my life
is studies, religion, my family and abit
more important is my relationship.

in studies, i could gain more knowledge
and a great job that is stable
and in religion, it will help me
in my life and in my 'end', you know what i mean by 'end'.
family, my family is my blood and i have them for life.
my relationship, i just want someone to give my love to.

well in quick summary,
i don't ask much for my life.
and all of the above are all reasonable.
and those are my dreams up there
that i already said. well being super rich
would be something but i don't want my
children to be spoilt. money can corrupt people.

in future, all wants and needs will change,
so does dreams. but never stop dreaming,
i wouldn't know what i have ahead of my life,
but i am going to carry on with my life and
see what fate god has placed for me.

To those who actually reads my blog,
i thank deeply and sincerely.
and here is some words of wisdom:

do not give up on your dreams, if it is something
that you think you can do then. you can do it.
its only in believing in yourself.

like that Kung Fu Panda movie,
the secret ingredient is nothing,
you just have to believe its special
to make it special.

well its 3.05am and i obviously cannot sleep due
to other matters so goodnight world

phrase/verse/sentence of the day:

But I'm dreamin'
In the mornin'
I'm dreamin'
All through the night
And when I'm dreamin'
I know
That it's all right
Woo, hoo, hoa

words taken from the song Dreamin' - weezer
nice song

Home

2008-06-23T15:14:00.007+08:00

WOOOHOOO!!!
we are home!!!
and we're still alive!
just got back from Aceh.
its the place where it got
hit by the tsunami.

And the tsunami is no joke
so quit laughing about it.
according to the locals,
the height of the water was 5om high
when i was there, i could see the horror
that engulfed the whole area.

well i just got back and I'm tired,
so...I'll go post the pictures another time,
I want to go rest first, see ya later.

phrase/verse/sentence of the day:

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moondust
In your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue

taken from the song Close to You - The Carpenters

Leaving

2008-06-19T10:50:00.002+08:00

Its officially 19th June,
and I'm leaving Singapore
and i haven't started packing.
i got more than enough hours to pack.
i guess theres no worries.

i don't feel excited to go overseas.
Well its not everyday that you get
to go out of the country right?
I'm not even sure when i will
be back actually. All i know is
I'm coming back on the 22nd or 23rd June

I'm going to miss all my friends and family
even if its for a few days i will miss you!
my dear readers whom i have no idea who.
haha, just give me a tag to let me know :)

well i just want to say thanks everybody
for all the helpful stuff u helped me with
and farewell to all, i will be back, i hope.
still scared of terrorist attacks. haha.
what are the odds of that happening, haha.
i worry too much about life threatening situations.

well last words before i leave: Aliens Exist!!!!

Yazid, you are funny.

phrase/verse/sentence of the day:

I hope you believe me
'cause I speak sincerely
and I mean it when I tell you
that I need you

words taken from the song My Best Friend - Weezer
my blog song, its not that clear but it'll do :)

GOODBYE EVERYONE!!!!!!
i love you

Smoking...

2008-06-18T03:04:00.008+08:00

Alright, Amir is Back to Blog.
i just feel like blogging tonight,
its 3.23Am right now,
and its 18 June!!!
I am leaving tomorrow night.
apologies for not updating frequently.

Alright off to the topic! haha.
well today's topic thats in my mind is
smoking. haha. sudden thought i guess.
well i saw this movie just now,
the name of the movie was, Thank You For Smoking.
its a nice movie, actually, its about this guy
who is a lobbyist for cigarettes, and all other stuff,
won't explain more, just find it on the net,
or somewhere only god knows where. haha.

For those who aren't sure of what is a lobbyist,
it is: a person who tries to influence
legislation on behalf of a special interest.
i just copy the meaning from an online dictionary,
i was lazy.

well coming back, ok there are bad
people in the world who smoke,
but not everyone who smokes are bad,
some were hooked in as a child and they
cant stop but they want to stop but they just can't.

some people smoke because its a choice.
its the same sort of choice of being vegetarian.
if you really believe that becoming a vegetarian
could make a difference in the world,
then by all means, do as what your heart believes in.

its actually nearing the same as judging people.
its not that i am on cigarettes or defending anyone,
but people just keep saying bad things about them,
and the smokers didn't do anything. but some people
really deserve it because like normal human beings,
there are people who are really aren't good in their
attitude.

well i heard these words from the movie:
"lets just say you become a lawyer, and you were asked
to defend a murderer, worst enough a child murderer,
now the law said that every person deserves a fair trial,
would you defend him?" and his son replied " i don't know,
i guess every person deserves a fair defense."

what i am trying to say is, just give people a chance,
and don't judge them for what they do,
judge them for who they are.
imagine you being an ex convict
and everyone keeps judging you for
what you did, but you know for yourself
that you are a changed person and you need a job but
people won't even think of giving you a chance.
wouldn't that s$%k?

ok side-tracked there,
the true point in this whole post is,
Do not judge people. i would go crazy
myself if I was being judged by people.
And i really don't like it when people
just judge people when they themselves are bad.

hahaha, ok I'm talking like the villain is a nice person.
I'll talk about villains and heroes next time then :]
alright before i leave, for those of you who have done
things that make them regret,
live with the regret and you actually learn more.
like in war games, there are always lessons to be learnt in defeat.
now who ever said playing games doesn't make you wiser. haha.
alright, goodbye for now, hope to post something before i leave
Singapore so...till then i guess. goodbye.

Every time i am not talking to you,
it makes me feel lonely and depressed,
and it kills me everyday when we don't speak to each other,
heck i could go suicidal just because of this,
you mean the world to me,
and I always love you truly....

phrase/verse/sentence of the day:

You are the angel and I am the one who is praying

words taken from the song The Angel And The One - Weezer
i recommend this song, its very touching,
well it touched me. haha.

Apologies

2008-06-15T12:35:00.003+08:00

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5 Days

2008-06-14T00:47:00.010+08:00

hey its tommy here again,
I'll go post something
for him because he is feeling down and sad
he'll get over it, i hope, haha. back to the day

Amir went to Tan Tock Seng Hospital,
his cousin got in a road accident, his cousin's arm got
dislocated and cracked and so is his leg,
didn't say which leg but yeah. i can imagine
him going fast on the road and his body fly
across the road when he gets hit.
it was a very scary sight to see.
he was Amir's close cousin's so yup,
he's feeling down more than yesterday.

this was the ward he was in,
well accidents happen but it could be fatal
luckily he's fine, and has undergone surgery,
i heard he's gonna have a metal rod
in his bone or something. wasn't listening much.
he's a great and friendly guy, like seriously great.
well glad thats he is alive. haha Friday the 13th.
Anything could happen.

Alright thats that, well for your information,
Amir is Leaving Singapore in 5 days time,
if I'm not wrong he said he's going to KL
then from KL take a flight to Aceh, Indonesia.
well if I'm not wrong, not really sure actually
but thats all the info i got.

he still feels sad and down about
his life and stuff so yea, he keeps thinking of
this girl. i don't understand him myself even.
well sometimes, or most of the time but not this time.
haha, oh whatever, thats his problem.
so please don't confuse him people.
he's just a human.

phrase/verse/sentence of the day:

So I'm following the sound, the sound of my heart
Beating 

words taken from the song take it all away - Ryan cabrera

Good Deeds

2008-06-13T00:12:00.006+08:00

hello world,
Amir here, here to blog,
didn't get to update because
someone was awake and i fell
asleep anyways, and today what
random thing i would be talking again.

well my mind kept thinking of
what defines a good person?
is it all about being nice?
donating? praying alot?

to me, its the amount of kind things
and good deeds that a person would do.
it doesn't matter how much money u donate.
its all depends on character, if your just a bad
unkind person, then u are one and no can change you,
but there is always a chance to change and
repent for all the bad things they have done.
people as in all humans makes mistakes.

i saw Bruce Almighty,its a movie, duh, a very long time ago
and this sentence of wisdom hit me hard,
it was " to save the world, you should start small" and
"god doesn't give you someone to love,
god gives you opportunity to love,
its only if you want to take the chance or not"
and from then on, i started to think i might
be-able to change myself and be a better person. you see,
the problem in this world is that no helps each other
if there is, its a small majority.everyone keeps asking for help but
never helps anyone other than themselves.
Its selfishness to others thats killing.

and for starting small, I've started to be kind
and give a smile to anyone. and i heard
from my religious teacher that even
a smile can be charity. sometimes i even
feed the hungry cats under my block
i mean even a homeless cat deserves love and care.
i just care i guess, don't you agree that even
a cat needs love and care.

And hey, I'm not trying to say anything
but if you are a lonely soul whose
got no one to give your love and care to
u could always go to those animal
shelters like SPCA and adopt one,

just today i saw a lady carrying a donation box
and she asked me to give a donation to the
needy people, i just so happen to be carrying $30
and i asked her how much would she like me to donate,
she said a small amount, so i took out my wallet and
donated $5 first, then i was thinking i was for a good cause,
she had signature and tags and everything to
confirm that she was genuinely doing it for the needy,
so i just donated another $2, it was a sincere donation.

hey if it helps others, why not right. well in conclusion,
just care for others and don't be selfish and all i am saying is
be selfless and think of others who could be sick in a
hospital or a handicapped person on a wheelchair in a rehab center.
just small things make huge differences. its only if you would care or not.

phrase/verse/sentence of the day:
"god doesn't give you someone to love,
god gives you opportunity to love,
its only if you want to take the chance or not"

words taken from the movie Bruce Almighty.
words aren't exact. all from memory

Yesterday

2008-06-11T10:59:00.012+08:00

Tommy here to
post about yesterday,

Well yesterday, Amir went swimming
with his best friends, they are a loyal bunch.
they are great friends, they are always
there to lend a helping hand
well little introduction, the one in green is syazwi,
the one on the right is Afiq, and the
one behind syazwi is Azfar.
We were all friends since primary school.

well moving on, we went to jurong east
swimming complex at 8am+.
Swimming was great,
and when we swim to the
pool where the big waves were,
we saw a rainbow, it was beautiful,
a complete ark, well wanted to take
a picture of it but i was in the water

then went to Mr Teh Tarik to eat,
and after that i went home,
change and went jamming.
when i reach the jamming studio,
i was like a zombie already, so tired,

well i guess thats it for yesterday, here are some photos :]

my friends.

Jurong east swimming complex

Azfar took my phone without me realizing it.

one picture b4 we go.

heres the jamming studio at Chinese garden

and last but not least, Amir!!! hahaha.

well i went jamming with Yuan Ching students,
they are: yasser, fitri, syafik and tahirah(a female drummer)
girl drummers are is such a rare sight, haha, well got go now,
later at night we're going to a birthday dinner for my cousin.
will post later, bye

phrase/verse/sentence of the day: if you want to be a hero, u need to have dreams.
words taken from final fantasy 7 crisis core, its a game, obviously.

Humans Greatest Invention

2008-06-10T02:59:00.008+08:00

Amir's turn to blog now :)
well I'm just going to open topic
of random stuff. no pictures sorry.
i got to admit, blogging is sort of fun.

Well anyways, todays topic is
humans greatest invention!
and that is MUSIC!!! hahaha.
In a way, music is always there for me,
when I'm feeling down or in a happy mood
but nothing beats talking crap with Tommy.

sometimes people ask me if I'm ok.
i just get lazy and explain to them by sending them
a song, and tell them to hear and understand the
lyrics in the song, haahaa, now as you're reading this,
the song on my blog shows how i feel at the moment.
to understand me more, just hear the lyrics, and understand.

Alright back to topic, for me,
i love to hear Rock music,
no genre in particular,
I'm not into pop or hip hop or techno.
i love listening to classical music at
times when i just need to sit down
relax and stare at the clouds out my window

In my opinion, music should be appreciated
because i know how hard it is to compose and write a song
its tiring and hard to find words
( completed writing a few already haha :] )

Tomorrow my friend invited me
to go swimming in the morning
and others call me up for jamming in the afternoon.
and i have to study at night,
DON'T YOU DARE SAY I NEVER STUDY!!!!!
people think i don't but i already buck up and in
realization that my exams are next month.
so please don't say mean things like i don't care about my future

Phrase/verse/sentence of the day: "I rather be happy doing nothing than do something I'm not".
words taken from the movie " What Happens in Vegas"

Another day of Amir's life

2008-06-10T02:02:00.015+08:00

Hey hey!
tommy is here to blog!!
brace yourselves!!! muahahaha!!!
Amir is in deep thought of someone
so I'll go fill in this blog of what we did today

Amir woke up at 2.30pm, we slept at 4.30am,
cant blame us for sleeping late,
his brother will be there to invade and
disturb, cant blame him too.
He's just being a brother,
but disturbing and irritating as he may be,
we got him FOR LIFE!!!! and we should just live with it.

well back to topic, he woke up at 2.30pm and
saw his brother opening a movie on the internet,
so he watch with him a movie and at 4.30pm,
Amir went out cycling, and of all places,
he cycled to Chua Chu Kang stadium(CCK Stadium).
his dad works there :) he just wanted to
know how long it would take him to cycle there

the reason is that his dad would occasionally
ask him to help out with his work, he does physical stuff
but gets payed for it. well will not elaborate about this,
it took him an entire hour to get him to CCK Stadium
it was fun, he was scared that he was going to be lost.
but made it safely there anyways,
he came back home at around 6.30pm.

well i took some pictures
while we were on the bicycle
so here they come:

this is the bicycle that made it happen

went to protected *AREA*, the word *AREA* wad taped over.
wth, hahaha.

welcome to the jungle, haha.

the water was moving gently and slowly
wished Singapore had rivers, hahaha

salvation at last, i almost thought all hope was lost!'

we finally made it!!!

the doors were like shining soo bright as if there
was something godlike behind them.

the swimming pools, :)

And thats it for pictures. i was joking,
we didn't go to forbidden grounds,
that would be trespassing
and guns can be shot at us, haha.
Amir's sense of direction is excellent.
he does gets lost sometimes but hey!
people makes mistakes right.

signing off for now,
Tommy.

Who is Amir!?!?

2008-06-08T22:36:00.012+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!
Tommy is here to blog! haha.
today Amir was almost late for his
guitar class which starts at 11am. haha!
he woke up at 10.45. luckily the school was close.

well today i should take the chance to introduce Amir.
haha. he's bloody kind, i can confirm that.
he helps when others are in need,
and tries his very best not to call for help,

he is sort of a good listener and he is really friendly
he just tends to be too naive or gets angry easily.
i think u can see that he is funny and especially random.
he could think of things that are soooo off topic

and i guess i'll take this chance to show you his room,
so here comes the pictures :)

his bed, he takes top bunk,

always a mess.

his table, what do you expect,

a closer look, hes only human.

he keeps staring outside when he talks to me.
well thats the view he sees everyday.

and thats the computer! next to my brother's table

well that enough about him for one day, haha.
too much information can kill.
i still got lots of things to type,
I'll just make another post next time
keep smiling:)

The First Step

2008-06-08T04:23:00.001+08:00

Hello!!!

well giving blogging a chance now.
tommy gave me the idea to start,
i just need to throw my emotions
somewhere, so where else better rite??
well atleast i dont have to bother
my friends with my complaints about life.

well i'll give an introduction of tommy, actually, he is my mind,
i just named him that so that i wouldnt think that im talking to
myself, the reason why i named him that is that, i'm always alone.
hahaha.

i'll keep the emo stuff to a minimum on this blog :)
well his name came about when i was like
thinking of these ideas and possible names:
Amir the 2nd
2nd of Amir
Two Amirs
Two mirs
To mir
Tommy!!!!!

that was how i got his name, i guess i'll stop here for today.
i got guitar lessons today at 11 to 12 noon.
haha so heading to sleep now. bye